it's a good thing there's chuzzle to satisfy the urge to crush furry balls with a thwooping sound.

by now i should be thick-skinned about other people's contrary opinions and malicious intents. like i told b., i will feel the tremors four hours after the story. now i'm feeling it.

except that i do know better. of course knowing better and going ballistic do not share the same train. the only difference now is the sugar that's keeping me awake for another hour or more before i droop to sleep.

i know i still have it lucky. she didn't. i can only say they're lessons learned, mostly the hard way. but you're only accountable to yourself and the people who matter to you.

i saw e. biking this afternoon. i sent a message his way a while ago, asking how he was. i sorely miss talking to him.

e. reported a little booboo with the financial report. frankly, my thoughts and sentiments are so far away from this terrain. they're off on a field mission, surveying the foreign territory, gathering notes, formulating plans and plan b's.

i will see you real soon. be ready for me.