Question # 2 from a Friendster survey: Two of your dominant feelings at the moment? Since my brain is suffering from what could be akin to a satellite feed delay, I couldn't remember the first answer. I do, however, remember the second and it was something like how I can't help but smile and shake my head finding myself in this state at the end of the year.

What state, you may ask. A mixture of thoughts and things I want to do to myself (that are, unfortunately, life threatening - no, not killing myself, just your garden-variety maiming, hitting my head against a stone wall, etc. - name your infliction of choice).

But enough of that. How about giving my top ten moments of 2004? That's a good way out of that last paragraph.

(In no particular order)
1. Chancing upon Marcel Duchamp's Nude Descending On a Staircase at a lonely corner of one of the many galleries tucked in Guggenheim and preventing myself from hyperventilating.

2. Being with Joffin, Aileen and Venilda in the greatest city in the world.

3. Finding myself in Detroit and realizing, wow, I am actually travelling by myself for the first time and I'm not scared.

4. Delivering my lovely Calvino paper to a group of half-awake people (hey, I got an early afternoon slot, alright?).

5. Realizing that I love a boy who has almost nothing in common with me.

6. Realizing that men are an interesting lot who can't help what they do most of the time. The most that a girl like me could do is love them anyway, let them be and forgive them.

7. Realizing that I manage to surprise myself everyday and it's a funny sight how I react to them.

8. Friends DO get you through the week.

9. Reconnecting with my first love - music and singing.

10. At the end of the day, family IS the one certain thing in one's life.