tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55106402009-11-13T18:30:20.188+08:00bananaduckyor how i have sunken to nihonggo-speak. think "it is sunny day. hope we be together."bananaduckynoreply@blogger.comBlogger509125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-86111693947889701162009-10-14T19:28:00.002+08:002009-10-14T20:12:41.556+08:001. I want to be friends with writing againWriting is supposed to be cathartic, even a joy. But for me, it is utter pain. I circle around a phrase like a commercial airplane forced to circle around the city, waiting for the air controller's permission to land.Why wait for the air controller? Why even bother flying a plane when you can ride on an air balloon. It seems cumbersome, not to mention bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-50052669618719833932009-10-13T19:09:00.002+08:002009-10-13T19:38:59.447+08:00ConfessionsSo I decided that bananaducky at blogspot was something that should be left alone, like that TOEFL reviewer my former student Jas lent me two years ago - it was one of the casualties my Xavierville II room incurred from the flood during typhoon Ondoy. I was too anxious to get back to Los Banos the following day (and spent very few days in QC afterwards) that did not have the time (or bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-55597054990371841382009-08-30T14:38:00.002+08:002009-08-30T14:47:27.601+08:00DO NOT RETURN TO SENDER July 11, 1948Dear Allen,Exorcise Neal. Louis(Excerpt from "Family Business: Selected Letters Between a Father and a Son - Allen and Louis Ginsberg." Michael Schumacher, editor)bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-55405064739209779552009-06-17T20:47:00.003+08:002009-06-17T21:14:42.929+08:00I'm microblogging on Blogger using the format of a Facebook status but with choices? Eh...Amy Colanta is:a) not panicking, which is unusual.b) in the middle of the slow descent of a sugar rush.c) missing/not missing that bloke.d) strategizing the semester after belatedly learning that one of her classes was dissolved.e) not feeling that her seemingly-perfect plans are ruined.f) thinking that bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-11537350408228457362009-06-12T19:45:00.001+08:002009-06-12T19:46:28.126+08:00Amy Colanta says bye-bye to you. (Should've not undone this six months ago.)bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-12217360809857945042009-06-06T15:00:00.001+08:002009-06-06T21:22:31.066+08:00The Story of Us(Photo: Mike Mergen for The New York Times)bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-57193406422603801322009-05-30T00:14:00.002+08:002009-05-30T00:25:09.965+08:00Top Five Hits1. A shirtless Pharell Williams performing "Everybody Nose."2. A chat with B. about our secret desires and longings.3. Everybody in their own syncs and rhythms proceeding in harmony.4. The pain/pleasure of being adored from a distance.5. The quiet security of drama-free, defiant, old-soul love.bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-53806701252391618102009-05-26T21:30:00.003+08:002009-05-29T02:00:10.997+08:00Wow, nasisilaw ako (sa kawalan ng blog posts)As usual, bullet points:1. This is my most hang-up free semester/summer in a very long time. (Read: INC class completed, enrolled class not INC'd.)2. Janey is engaged, yahoo!!!3. Two friends are marching down the aisle this June. (Thankfully their weddings don't fall on the same Saturday, gahds.)4. Nakakatawa man ang sinulat ko sa # 4, dinelete ko na bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-21590663689415754882009-04-17T21:35:00.001+08:002009-04-17T21:37:34.233+08:00This reminded me of Dr Seuss, for some reasonbananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-84024719169202572082009-03-15T20:38:00.002+08:002009-03-15T21:22:09.159+08:00stressed and happybananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-82844905847503272572009-03-01T20:44:00.003+08:002009-03-01T20:59:40.492+08:00My days on speed dial1. We high school ladies are having a long-overdue reunion with Lubs, wow. It occured to me that I haven't had the opportunity to see her in the two times I was in the US. Lots of catching up to do.2. Jane expressed her concerns over an important person in her life. Was reminded of an (old?) wisdom (??) that we tend to attract the same kinds of people in our lives. I dare notbananaduckynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-59426357716797749672009-02-17T23:14:00.003+08:002009-02-17T23:28:38.643+08:00I drained myself too much the past few days. It is a very horrible feeling. Your brain is telling you to do this, do that, but the will is rebelling. (I am leaving the body out of this discussion for now.)I am not sad, just bewildered, even aimless.Time to close shop for the day and thank goodness there is the imperative to close shop to mark the end of the day, as if the day depended more on bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-67978009361365354162009-01-26T00:00:00.002+08:002009-01-26T00:10:22.513+08:00Shorthand (It's been quite a while)1. Managed to clock in nearly five hours of watching Lav Diaz's Melancholia. Tried to patch up the unknown ending by reading a summary online. I have to recuperate the last three hours. (P.S. No bathroom breaks there, not even stretchings inside the moviehouse. Yes, it can be done.)2. Am on page 50 of The Old Gringo by Carlos Fuentes. A sorry-ass rate of readingbananaduckynoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-86810526698005933642009-01-19T23:58:00.002+08:002009-01-20T00:07:16.831+08:00So I guess this is Day Three of That Infinite Sinking FeelingVery, very paranoid about people. Ayoko na lang patulan.While there is this part of my head that wants to snicker, the only thing I am sure of is that I am sincerely happy about the things that make my friends happy. I am also happy my friends do not fall under the same batch of cookie cutters.Such defiance for me to express happiness bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-46279619522387028622009-01-19T22:10:00.003+08:002009-01-19T22:18:16.893+08:00Today was brought to you by GarfieldNow I know why I had to take a personal leave from everything (well maybe not everything).bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-83404080509068811062009-01-11T17:22:00.002+08:002009-01-11T17:32:03.911+08:00You know how you think you've invented a name (not necessarily for your impending name-change and not necessarily for your would-be child) that sounds equal parts exotic and dumb. You nurture that strange creature in your head, only to be relegated to the dark folds of your memory as you plod through the days dreaming and despairing.Then one day you see the name attached to a surname. There is a bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-80045234672861253582008-12-30T22:03:00.002+08:002008-12-30T22:21:37.134+08:00People pay too much attention to 'the calm before the storm,' as if one has to savor what is there of the much-accustomed present before it falls into disarray. Or, preparations have to be made (the furniture to be moved to the highest place in the house, doors and windows that needed to be boarded up) before the catastrophe. Or, simply, to hold one's breath to withstand maximum impact and bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-32806628132014961942008-12-25T17:47:00.009+08:002008-12-25T18:05:49.395+08:00I am looking forward to seeing Revolutionary Road, not just because of its 50s suburbian ennui that I am drawn too (see Far From Heaven) and not just because of Kate Winslet's predilection as a hubadera (no wait, that's The Reader).It's because Nina Simone's Wild is the Wind is used heavily in the trailer (and I suppose in the movie as well, I hope). It's been a long time since I listened to anybananaduckynoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-62204619770583823122008-12-25T09:10:00.001+08:002008-12-25T09:12:58.094+08:00Merry Christmas to everyone!bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-81034981437716571982008-12-21T15:09:00.002+08:002008-12-21T15:20:42.202+08:00Because being a friend is more important than self-preservation, I could say I'm a world-class idiot.Which is why now, more than ever, I do believe in angels. And the Great Parent God (that does not need to distinguish between He and She).Which is why when I'm busy being a world-class idiot, I am given corporeal angels to keep me from harm's way of being a friend.Because I'd rather that two bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-25288101279963895462008-12-19T21:13:00.001+08:002008-12-19T21:15:50.818+08:00Curiouser and curiouserbananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-2745806673684337482008-12-12T21:01:00.002+08:002008-12-12T21:07:34.291+08:00Thank you, P. You helped me draw up a sound plan.Thank you, C. You are a good friend to us.And thank you, Jane. It is, indeed, the gift that keeps on giving.bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-77388155395136907872008-12-08T19:55:00.003+08:002008-12-08T20:09:05.422+08:00Fota, what was I thinking?Oo, fota. Ano bang naisip ko at yun ang naiorder-order ko for what should be my birthday dinner?The setting: Pancake House, dahil I suddenly felt like eating homey food, ika nga nila sa mga billboards nila. At parang kahit na kaya ng wardrobe ko ang mag fine dining, di kaya ng manners ko tonight ang magpakademure.Seriously, I was opting between a juicy hamburger and the bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-25881977337611131852008-12-02T21:14:00.002+08:002008-12-02T21:20:02.875+08:00I'm plain pooped and ready to call it a day, but there's work to do and the best time to do work is now, not the pretend I-will-wake-up-na-lang-at-4-am baloney I fool myself with.Has anyone tried to wake up even at 6 am and bravely resisted the dipping temperature of late? (Okay, that would be the multitudes who answer to an 8 am office schedule.)Sleepy. Already. Must. Resist. The. Yawns.bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5510640.post-12646163993049209652008-11-30T22:11:00.002+08:002008-11-30T22:15:44.043+08:00Supernerd1. Tanong ni ser nung Biyernes: What's your Enlightenment project? My quiet mental answer: To not suck at being a nerd.2. Pilar: Grabe, supernerd na ako lately. I do nothing but read. Jane: Kindergarten pa lang tayo, alam ko nang nerd ka.Kweng kweng kweng kwengggggg.bananaduckynoreply@blogger.com5